Last part of the After series which means that this is the last post about my China trip!
Should I do this?
I could go tomorrow…
It might be fun…
[This is a scheduled post. I’m on vacation and can’t immediately respond to comments.]
I don’t want to write this article but I have to…
July is over now which means that my three months long intership is over and I can go back home to my boyfriend! Finally!
Ugh, it seems like I love to push myself and bring me in new uncomfortable situations. I’m actually embarrassed that I can’t cope with the situation and have to write this article…
Did this ever happen to you? You sleep peacefully and all of a sudden you wake up in the middle of the night and everything feels wrong? You start to doubt every decision from the day. You regret everything. You are going to fail. You will disappoint people. Nothing will work out as planned. Panic. Worry. Your heartbeat is going faster. Stress. Your inner peace is in danger. Your sweet sleep is forgotten. You are paralyzed with fear.
What to do?
This Saturday morning my boyfriend and I didn’t want to get up since the thought of having to study all day wasn’t really appealing. We stopped for a moment, cuddled, talked, enjoyed each other’s company (and procrastinated). It was such a wonderful way to start the day since we usually don’t wake up at the same time.
I love to read inspirational quotes, so whenever I come across a quote that really got me thinking, I make sure to write it in my little notebook. Therefore, I already have a nice collection to look at in demotivating, overwhelming and frustating times. One after another I want to share my favorite quotes with you guys!
Let’s start today!
As long as I can remember I thought I am a perfectionist.
I liked getting things done, getting them right and getting recognized for it. I always did my homework in school and university, studied well for every exam and was the “leader” in group work.
But it got to a point where I got problems. I couldn’t hand in my assignments or homework because I thought I could have made a mistake or the assignment wasn’t good. Before an exam I was afraid that I didn’t study enough.
At this point I asked myself why I want to do everything perfectly. It’s not because I genuinely enjoy things being done perfect, but because I fear of not being good enough. I fear of failing and regretting handing in a bad assignment or getting a bad grade. Maybe it would ruin my grade average and my future.