Unchangeable

This month I particularly learned my lesson of how to deal with the inevitable. It’s difficult to accept that I can’t control everything. It’s my life but there are things decided on my behalf or consequences of decisions I have to deal with.

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Feeling Self-Conscious about my Appearance

2016-08-17 11.04.09

In school I was the tall skinny girl who was bad at sports but could eat anything I want without gaining a pound. I was actually always satisfied with my looks. Even now when the time of eating what I want is over. I gained weight and have normal weight right now. All in all, I have no problem with my weight, curves and general appearance. Isn’t that great? Who can say that they are satisfied with their body nowadays? My fashion style is quite simple and comfortable. You can’t go wrong with Jeans and a T-Shirt.

Recently, I had to deal with a difficult person. Oh boy, did this person annoy me. This person was criticizing my looks. Not my weight (this person is actually happy that I am not so skinny anymore) but my style. No matter what I was wearing, I wasn’t pretty enough. When this person saw what I was wearing (again, Jeans and a T-Shirt) this person asked me if I had prettier clothes. Not in a calm and suggestive way but in a “how can you possibly think that you look good in these clothes” way. Sorry, but I wear what I want.

How can you tell somebody that they look bad? Why does it matter what I wear? Am I embarrassing you? Am I disappointing you? (Again, I wore a completely normal pair of JEANS and a T-SHIRT!) Why do I get criticized? I would never say something like that to this person.

I wear clothes because I can’t leave the house naked and not because I want to impress strangers. Everybody should wear whatever they want. If you want to dress up, do it! If you are not interested in fashion, no problem either!

For a second, this person made me feel insecure about my looks and made me hate all my clothes. But then I realized that this person just has good intentions. This person wants me to dress up to show how pretty I actually am. This person is actually proud of me and wants me to dress to my fullest potential to show me off. This person doesn’t want me to “hide” behind simple clothing.

But the thing is, I don’t need anybody to tell me that I am beautiful or pretty because another T-Shirt or dress won’t change me. These people don’t even see and realize how beautiful I am. How can a skirt change this fact? Why should I impress people with my great style? I want to impress and inspire people with my good heart and good actions.

Don’t get me wrong. If you are interested in fashion and trends, that is great! If you don’t, that’s great either! Do what makes you happy! Being fashionable doesn’t mean you are shallow! Everybody has different interests, opinions and creative outlets. If fashion is your passion (uh I rhyme) then live your passion! But it is not my passion and that is ok.

Instead of being angry at this person, I want to thank you for reminding me what is important in my life.

Did something like that happen to you before? How did you react?