My feelings vary between motivation and frustration.
There are moments when I think “This is exciting, I can do this!” and then there are other moments where I doubt everything and see my degree waving as it passes me.
Truth is, I don’t know what I’m doing. The people I’m working with are also not really helping (either sick or on vacation).
I always thought that you would broaden the knowledge in your thesis of some topic you already worked on in uni. I somehow ended in a completely different field. Don’t get me wrong, I love this field. This is the field I want to work in. The problem is rather that this field was barely covered in uni. I had to take so many courses I’m not interested in. Not even my prof who is grading my thesis knows much about it. I tought myself almost everything I know now. I read a lot prior to the thesis.
My mood changes so much during the day. From complete helplessness to positive excitement within minutes. I’m sure that many people can relate to this.
It’s challenging but who said that it would be easy, right?