I decided to share my following thoughts and plans with you guys because I want to change a bad habit. But I need some pressure, someone looking over my shoulder. That is why I need you. I need to shout out my plan to the universe and have the pressure from this blog to stick to it and update you in a while with my experience.
I recently watched this ted talk about procrastination and I came to the conclusion that I am the master of procrastination. The Oxford Dictionary defines procrastination as:
[mass noun]The action of delaying or postponing something:
your first tip is to avoid procrastinationPhrases: procrastination is the thief of timeproverb
If you delay doing something, it will take longer to do later on:
maybe TV and procrastination really are the thieves of time
I have the great ability to push tasks far away from me until a certain deadline is almost reached. It gets worse if there is no deadline for a task. And it gets even worse for really uncomfortable tasks. The problem is that the thought of a task is still at the back of my mind. I can’t stop thinking about what I have to get done. Sometimes I even get nightmares. I push a task for 2 weeks but constantly think: “Oh, I still have to get this done. Should I start? No…”
So why do I procrastinate? Why do I not just do the task? Every nomal person would sit down and get the damn things done.
In my 17 years of school and uni, I was never the type of person who got homework done the day it was assigned. I got things done right before the deadline. I was also never the type of person who would write to-do-lists. I sort of just do things the way I please on the day I want. Oftentimes I have a list or sort tasks by priority in my mind. But I never write things down because then you really have to do it. I don’t want to commit to that.
I also simply don’t want to face some difficult or uncomfortable tasks. Why not ignore it till the very last moment? But I have to realize that this is not a solution. These uncomfortable things have to get done anyways. If I want to or not. Instead of constantly thinking about it and dreading it, why not just do it??
Recently (actually for quite a while but I was too lazy to change something), this method is not working out. I am stressed all the time because I don’t get things done which cause the stress. It is a vicious cycle of stress. I start at one point, remember that I have to get something else done, stop, work on something else, stop with that and etc.
I feel like my imaginary to-do-list is always full, there are always new task coming in, but nothing gets crossed out. My whole time management is messed up. Whenever a new task comes up, I feel overwhelmed because there is always more work.
On top of that, I have the feeling of not doing anything in a day although that is not the case. Since I am a student and on semester break, I have nowhere to go. I study, do my assignments, eat, chill etc. at home. I have no pressure to change that. There is no strict separation of work and free time. I don’t have to go to work from 9am to 5pm. I can work whenever I want. Sometimes till midnight, sometimes just an hour a day. But I would constantly feel that I HAD to work. I thought of going to uni like I would go to work but I hate having to pack everything and bring it with me. We are also not allowed to eat in the library but I always have to eat and drink when I work. And since I need to bring my laptop anyways, I can also procrastinate at uni.
That is why I oftentimes have the feeling: “It is 3 pm and I have done nothing today!” or “It is Monday and I have so much time for my assignment. … It is already Friday! What did I do all week??” I lose track of my tasks and what I did.
To sum it up, procrastination mixed with laziness is a deadly combination.
This will be a strong bad habit to tear down.
My first attempt to break this habit is to start writing lists (you can see my notebook in the picture). First, a to-do-list with a realistic amount of tasks. I don’t want to note too many tasks a day because that could be too overwhelming. Second, I want to write down what I did that day. Everything. From doing the dishes, reading chapter 3 and 4, studying chapter 8, cooking dinner, bringing the trash out, writing 5 mails etc. Like a diary but without emotions.
So, I think I am going to start tomorrow.
Just kidding! I start today! Today is the day I am going to start to conquer my laziness!
I am going to update you in a couple of weeks on my progress or failure.
Let’s do this!
Are you a procrastinator? Do you have any tips to overcome this bad habit?
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